I will be the one in the corner
Trying to not be seen
I will be the one speaking
Yet not being heard
I will be the one smiling
Yet hiding my true feelings.
I will be the one loving
Yet without understanding
I will be the one keeping my distance
Yet fearful of disconnection
I will be the one searching
Yet never to be found
I will be the one understanding
Yet never understood
I will be forever dreaming, forever hoping, praying
Yet judging it all
I will be the one fighting my cause
Yet struggling to maintain
I will be the one to determine
Yet what I will be~
NJM~
Bipolar Tapestry~Poetic Thoughts 
Thank you
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I understand what you are saying especially about love. I was talking to God last night about the difficulty in understanding…
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This is really nice! 🙂 so honest
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A moving poem. I love the wise, empowering ending – we are indeed the only ones who can determine what we will be. Made me think of this famous poem – Invictus:
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems-and-poets/poems/detail/51642
Blessings, Harula x
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this is the way many of us feel. no one ever understands us. Yet there is one that has so wonderfully made us perfect in his eyes and he understands and cares for us so much more than we can ever understand. God bless you.
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Thank you!! Glad blessed you received from it.
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This is beautiful and I completely relate.
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Thank you glad you could relate and feel it!:)
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This so profoundly spoke of me – so deep in my heart and spirit. Thank you for understanding, connecting, in the struggle, in the silence. ❤
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