Seroquel now there is a pill
No way to easily put it all these side effects…
No metabolism, no perfect weight
It helps me sleep, but mostly eat
It often makes me stumble on my feet
What a fuckin treat all these meds I get to take, is my feelings real or are they fake?
Mostly is this my life to take ? Gee all this is just grand so great.
Now if this is my choice, my voice if it mattered I suppose quite simply I chose the latter.
Sad but true these ups and downs this roller coaster goes round and round
I’m tired now I want to get down and stand firmly upon ground.
Do you stand firmly on ground? You see, Or are you just like me? Confused conflicted often addicted to the one thing that makes you feel grounded
I thought my screams were alone but it sounded like echos of others all like me screaming in hell trying to be free
Seroquel
Monthly Archives: February 2019

~Tangled Emotion~NJM~
You Tangle my emotions
Tied them in a knot
Walked out my life leaving my heart to rot
As you slammed the door
I dropped to the floor
Getting stuck in the creases
Edges tathered torn
Grabbing for paper to write a letter….
But I am a typo
On written pages of life
With a message to convey
Not without perplexing one’s views
Part of the glitch
Some call me a bitch
Others a whore
Some say they need nothing more
I complete them
Impossible you see
If I can’t complete you
How the hell do I complete me
Tangled tied ripped upart, yet I’m still alive
Often I wonder is it chaos and tragedy on which I thrive
it’s all I know it’s how I survive go figure
~Do you Understand Freedom?
This moment transparent
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~Inspiration~
My inspiration my muse
You are the rain tapping
On the tin roof
As thunder rolls above
The sheer silence
Your soft whisper
The sun glistening upon leaves
Peaking through clouds
The way he looked at me
The way he touches
His smell
Those eyes
The way the child smiled at me
The book I have read
Thoughts left unsaid
Books still on a shelf
The passion once felt
The love I have
The pain I endured
The doves cooing
The birds chirping
The wind that blew by
The beautiful blue sky
The perfect storm
Lightening strikes
The lyrics to a song
Played in my mind all life long
Life how it sometimes goes wrong
The crush I may have
Conversations that have ended awkwardly
Trees and their amazing strength
Their roots
The touch of a friend who taps your shoulder
The fact that we are all getting older
The smell of rain
The touch of my pets fur
The painting at the museum
The words beautiful explanations
Brought to life
The questions
The oceans
The rivers & Lakes
All Gods creatures
Including the snake
Inspiration is all around
Even your feet on the ground
Sand between my toes
The skip in my jump
Fire & ice
How to entice
Elements and beauty all around
That’s where my inspiration is found~

~The Struggle~
It’s always some struggle, because there is always some fight.
It’s always a struggle in the day and at night.
Egos at play
Words you can’t say
It makes it easy for our hearts to stray.
I place upon you,
You place upon me
We can never seem to just let it be.
Twisting and turning convoluted
In fashion.
Lacking control and abandoned compassion.
Brutal in truth
Standing your ground
Ominous atmosphere
Thick all around.
Minds that refrain
Lives in constant pain
Lives in the struggle
The never ending strain.
Pitiful characters are what comes to mind.
Knowing the struggle they constantly find.
Not For Reproduction~

~Preemptive~revised~
Preemptive I suppose
I leave first
You silver tongue devil
You had me almost
But all of my life I stood by
With hope learning to cope
No more
Preemptive I am
Strike you down
Out of my sight
Purged from my mind
You can come to look
You will not find
Preemptive in love
Just as in war
I am a missile
I reach out so far
I’ll tear down your defenses
I close in on you all around
Slash your heart first
Never again it’s now
A curse
Laid upon me long ago
A trust can be broken only so many times
Am I confused unable to see
I breed in you and you breed in me
And we also bleed too!
Your deceit
Is a pool of my blood around your feet
My blood, my scars
No one can never cross far over my lines
Drawn in a particular way
So when I am done
I have the say
Preemptive
I can’t even make it a month
Thinking of what could be us
I see to much fault
You are not what I thought
Characteristics you portray
Soon fade away
So I jump out
Leaving you quickly
I can’t conceive
Why you can’t perceive
That I am no longer shackled
By love or sex
Well I’d like to think
Mortal coil craves
I’m human
I have my days
I’m preemptive
You wonder how you let go the best
It’s not you
It’s not a test
So go on your way
Give it a rest
Wait what did I just say?
Preemptive dear Darlin dear
Now feel the fate as it draws near~