Disconcerting…..Detached
Colors outside the lines
Blurry…..
This particular emotion is completely lacking…..
Lacking cohesive qualities
It’s unravelling
And the edges keep getting stuck in the door
At its most severe case it’s completely unsettling…..
And it’s weakest
Subtle anxiety
Dry mouth
Like sand mixed with cotton
Anesthetized
Clinical white
In this sterile environment
I’ll await my next dosage
Hands heavy laden
Cracked around the edges
Layered with side effects~
Not for Reproduction~
Bipolar Tapestry~Poetic Thoughts 
I wonder how you can inspire a friend to seek help? My best friend doesn’t want to try meds, still she suffers a lot of being bipolar. It destroys her relationships and she is suffering. But she refuses to seek help. She says she is used to live with the problems and that I have to respect her desicion not to seek help. Still as a friend I feel helpless to see her in this shape.
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Unfortunately you are. It’s a sad but true reality. Remember to not take her ugly personal it’s part of the UNTREATED illness good luck and feel free to ask anything ok
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Thank you so much for your reply. Yes I try to think like that. Still I feel frustrated, because she refuses help, because she tried once and then gaved up and it’s just hard to watch her. And like you say, in the more manic phas she can say really hurtful things and she hates that afterwards, but still she says that she never is going to go to a doctor. . She has those raoid cycling, so she doesnät want to plan anything because she never knows in what mood she will be in and she doesn’t want to mess things up. Well, I have to find a way to accept her decision.
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Wow she really just chooses a much different approach and it sounds absolutely exhausting
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Yes it is. And when I tell her that I really want her to seek help, she cut the contact with me. I guess this is life. I honor you for spreading knowledge about ipolar disorder and I wish you the best of luck.
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I can relate, my medication makes me feel the same way. I have been on lamictal for going on a year almost (100mg three times a day) and it impacts my mood in a sedative way. I am also on Gabapentine to help level my mood out. (Hi I’m Gracia by the way) lol
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High Grace I’m Nicole. My cocktail that works for me are Lamictal 400mg plus serwuel 300mg and then Clonipin6mg a day I take almost all at night too
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I also take 20mg of Saphris, 4mg of Lorazepam and 1mg of Prolixin. All of these combined keeps me normal. (My normal) lol
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I’ve dealt with side effects for years, but am happy to say that I found a mix (and right doses) that give me virtually none. It’s possible.
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also im am having a depressive episode again I could feel it coming on and iv been on the tablets since april is it normal to still have episodes ? I gather the tablets don’t make it stop ? im on 200 mg at the mo he said hel increase every few weeks as needed.
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how long have you been on it as im on the same .been on it for a few weeks was fine at first but this week im exhausted does the feeling of tiredness go ?
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Yes. But it depends on dosage. I have been on sequel and lamictal for well over 6 years now. Serquel on and off.
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