You’re my Micky to my Malorey
I’m the Bonnie to your Clyde
Jump in the car my love lets ride ride ride,,,,,,,
Going 100 miles an hour with you by my side
Nothing can stop us now
Take what we want
Do or die
Till the end
Humor me my love
Even if you lie
I’d rather not be living
If all I’ll do is cry~
Disconcerting…..Detached
Colors outside the lines
Blurry…..
This particular emotion is completely lacking…..
Lacking cohesive qualities
It’s unravelling
And the edges keep getting stuck in the door
At its most severe case it’s completely unsettling…..
And it’s weakest
Subtle anxiety
Dry mouth
Like sand mixed with cotton
Anesthetized
Clinical white
In this sterile environment
I’ll await my next dosage
Hands heavy laden
Cracked around the edges
Layered with side effects~
Not for Reproduction~
Chattering heard whispers distance
Laden thoughts loudly waken
Inner peace completely shaken
grandeur spectacle,grace abound
Wings spread outward a glorious sound
Heaven bound! heaven bound !
But darkness creeps,the hell found
Majestically tathered whilst in flight
Eyes fixed dilated penetrating sight
Your face appears
A subtle grin
scales of justice
Weighs right in
Extending hands seal this fate
Reaching out past hades gate
Mere mortals shutter with defeat
While broken limb doth demons eat
Wishful fate Grasping hold I reach
But you slipped away
Your spirit yielded
I could not look
Your heart was empty
The hour glass shook
Cracked upon the floor
Sand spilling out
My fervent screams
into a mystical shout
Am I your angel?
Am I your demon?
Exalted I flex my wings
Fascinating melody will I sing
Searching for you
Bring you back
Hold you close
As thunder claps
Breath new life, I’ll quicken you
Perplex your mind
While I search onward
For my own kind
NJM~
Not for Reproduction~
Smeared dullness
Catatonic stare
That’s what they think
Washed out color
Long halls painted grey
Not a door insight
Ideas out of focus
Stifling, confusing
Lack luster, incredulous
emotions …….Clawing away the life fingers scraping their nails jagged and bloody, threads unravelling.. like the sound of a chalk board being scratched.
That’s what stigma, bias does isolates you.
Yet I exist Wrapped inside this cocoon~
Generic and uncategorized yet longing to be labeled and in a category ~ oh wait, I am… I fall under stigma mental illness under my skin, unseen yet relentless in my mind there are millions of my kind.
One size fits all as long as that size is extra large as to swallow my frame,as well as yours.
Swallowing my existence whole~
Preferably invisible~
Left unseen~
To myself~
Designated ~
As is~NJM
Smeared dullness
Catatonic stare
That’s what they think
Washed out color
Long halls painted grey
Not a door insight
Ideas out of focus
Stifling, confusing
Lack luster, incredulous
emotions …….Clawing away the life fingers scraping their nails jagged and bloody, threads unravelling.. like the sound of a chalk board being scratched.
That’s what stigma, bias does isolates you.
Yet I exist Wrapped inside this cocoon~
Generic and uncategorized yet longing to be labeled and in a category ~ oh wait, I am… I fall under stigma mental illness under my skin, unseen yet relentless in my mind there are millions of my kind.
One size fits all as long as that size is extra large as to swallow my frame,as well as yours.
Swallowing my existence whole~
Preferably invisible~
Left unseen~
To myself~
Designated ~
As is~NJM
I helped you Die those little deaths In your sorry existence
I gave you songs.
When you had no tunes left in you
I started to see the fire in your belly
And the steel running down your back
You were the most fearsome thing that ever lived
I know I breathed the life into you
I’m the one who awakened you However you started the fire
Now you must sleep
Embrace those little deaths
As a reminder of
The memory
Of me
In you alive For Eternity~
Not for Reproduction~
I’m weird
I’m not of this world 🌎
The ether
I’m ethereal
I have lost
To much
The touch
The energy
The love
The essence
The Friends ……as I walked away
I lost it all
Had bills to pay
I lost my son, he is not the boy he was
And now it would seem I must accept I have lost a love I’ll never understand ……. boy to man~
So remember me and I’ll remember you….. yes I know I bit off more than I can chew
I lost the will to continue on
So I’m walking away it’s time to move on
You and I both know
You broke me
Still yet I am here
I’m gonna walk away now gotta learn somehow
You know I know you are with him
Hard headed always was
I’ll see you again in this I’m sure
Remember from this point my intentions pure
But I’m waving goodbye to you
I’m walking away now in this I know
I have to go
Walking away
Catch you on another day, time, place, or another life
These wounds cut like a knife
Looking back once more
Wish you would talk to me once Again, before I close the exit door
As…………………….. I’m
……….walking away~
Words emptied spilling
Letters jumbled
Speech of madness
Little bits of heaven scattered
All about
Smeared with indifference
Rejection and doubt
Reaching deeply
These wholes in my heart
This pain in my chest
I am starting to wonder
Where is my rest
From the thoughts, hopes
Dreams, now it’s all crying broken
Wounds scream
Still we linger
Trust you’re not letting go
It’s the feeling in my gut
The calling of my name
Summoning me from time to time
To play these awful games
Day in and out
You will always think of me
Deep beyond my rejected soul
I’m always the best you’ll ever see
It’s me that lives deep in your head my voice in your mind
You’ll never let go but trust you Will run out of time
Oh battered soul, beaten heart
Gathering the important parts
Trying to bury the bones
Sweet dignity oh blessed be
To think you walked away
Truth be told you never left
I lingered too~
NJM~
See you can’t move the stars, you can chose the ones to gaze upon, you can make a wish, say a prayer then take life on an exiting dare~NJM
Loneliness
A feeling so singular
A despair that numbs
No one around you
No where for them to come
Much less would you run if they did
Who can you trust
In this life you have to have one
At least they say it’s a must
Don’t believe them
There is……
A home that is lost
Friends walk away
Seems in this life
Nothing will stay
Alone
In silence
Able to just think
To sink
Downward
Into the pits of ominous clouds
Thoughts of a past screams out loud
People who loved you
Lied
None kept
All I can feel
Is completely inept
A fear that grips
A suffering so real
That all you have left
Is no way to feel
But alone~
Bipolar Tapestry~Poetic Thoughts 