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Category Archives: Faith
Consistency …..And Sparta? Yes!!
I decided long ago consistency does count, but I forgot it is a two way street. I can’t be the only one striving for that attribute in any relationship.
If you’re not able to also be acknowledgeable of me in consistent status, then I Guess you can’t run in my 300. Not many can it should be called my 3 lol. Since I barely trust anyone and I have two I can count on…. they run in my 3 …….. huh my 3…And play it out like 300.
Sparta! They consistently worked together to eventually defete an empire. It was dedication to the consistency that was beautiful. They moved as one unit.If you can’t communicate with me and act as a team as a unit then please do us all a favor stay away already. 
I live in my Sparta and I’m gonna Conquer my distractions in many ways… May God be with me~ and may he be with you too~ God Speed~ we all need it~
~Bipolar Self Check & Cycles~
Being bipolar and knowing that patterns such as triggers and time frames, stress the very fact that we cycle is extremely important. History tends to repeat itself, many things repeat themselves, bipolar individuals happen to skid into this surreal area a little too often.
Wanna know something else all the meds in this world can’t stop what I just mentioned. Lifestyle combined with a medicinal regiment can avert most travesty. But medicine alone can’t. I know. I’ve gone manic, in fact bonkers and was still on my meds. Was I fun, uh not really….well maybe for a bit, but only to myself.
Know something else,the company you keep, the person you may love can be the very trigger that spirals you off balance.
So the question I ask myself and you, are you gaining you right now? That’s right, are you gaining YOU? Or losing pieces here and there before you know it you’re everywhere, all the while thinking you’re put together or at least coming off that way. Hiding that Bipolar cloak and dagger in our pockets ready to pull that pocket inside out and release all that debris and shreds of crap at the bottom. You know the shit you feel in the empty pocket….looks like dust bunnies living there. Those dust bunnies are you, that debris is you and and all that pent up crap.
Are or you the cloth that the pocket is concealed in? Looking all sheik and stylish, but inside crying out with no voice? interesting how its this way or that and this goes for everyone bye the way, not just us bipolar people. People out there, you can learn a lot from those like me willing to share my life, thoughts, feelings, and you don’t have to have bipolar to gain insight either, this is a one size fits all kinda stuff that human beings go through. Just we may handle it a bit different.
I’m writing this for myself, for all those reading this, it’s self check time.
What is healthy? It’s having all YOUR needs met. Is this happening right now? Are do you feel short changed? I feel a bit short changed to tell you the truth. Hey, I am being honest.
Are you happy? Are or you up and down all the F’n way around and it’s due partially to the company you keep? Yeah I mean face it we all are a bit F’d up in our own way, but do we need more of it from others at specific turning points of our life? Crossroads….they are everywhere by the way, and just a reminder…uh.. they can happen any day.
Should you be alone? Yes! Sometimes being alone before polluted thinking takes over you, helps you to clearly see what you couldn’t before and remove yourself from any given situation whether it be love, business, friendships, or just being social at this time.
But living in this world you must take care of you first. You have nothing to give out to others no love or kindness if you don’t love yourself and are not genuinely kind to you.
The road ahead may be a bit stressful but if diplomatically approached you can ease through most anything bipolar or not.
These are my Bipolar Thoughts at this time, hope you got something out of it.
It’ my story, I’m sticking to it. What’s yours?
NJM~
~Love~
He that loveth not knoweth not God. For God is LOVE! 1 John 4: 8
So love more hate less and don’t ride fences. ~NJM~
So smile you are loved!
~If you Missed today’s Show Moments of Clarity~I’ll be there visiting her on July 13th~See you there!
If you couldn’t catch me and Tiffany live today go here and catch podcast at momentsofclaritywithtiffany.com podcast will be saved on the web page and also on tantalk1340.com
I’ll be on again in a few weeks sometimes more.
Pod cast
I look forward to the venture with Moments of Clarity with Tiffany Werhner she is amazing and we are on a mission.
~Take Me Now~I’m Yours~
As dusk approaches
Our lips touch briefly
Jumping up I run
Waiting for you to chase me
Through this field of green
Sun glistening off distant oak trees leaves
The fall breeze
Flows around
Find me
Tackle me
To the ground
Kiss me again
Harder more forceful
Bring me closer
As your hands flow
Over my curves
Taste me
I give in
Passions explodes
Fireworks and confetti
Seem to……..
Paint the atmosphere
You took me down
And in your arms and heart may I
Always be found ~
NJM~
~The Past~
I pull away. You’ve hurt me. There is nothing that will ever heal it completely.
My soul is dim, all due to him… You.
But all in all I love you too.
Love doesn’t live in digits it surpasses age, transcends boundaries . Number are numbers. Pick one.
That simple~Always.~
Ttys.
~DAR~Updated
Hello how you feeling today We ended the month of May
While you were yet away
Doctors seem stupid in light of it all, I’ve watched for so long now saw how you fall
Hello my dear enemy my oldest friend half our lives are now gone this could be your end
I’m not going to sugar coat nor
Make it taste sweet, see we both shocked each other before
Knocked us off our feet.
I will always be here for you while I am here. There can’t be a promise no matter what you think you hear.
I realize now we both live our biggest fear.
I’m glad we found peace after all that fucked up shit.
I know you want to take back all the things you did, I want to forgive you but I did, I just don’t forget.
Knowing this is always going to be regret…. for us both.
We grew up together then grew far apart.
I hope they can heal you and your heart, yes it’s broken in many ways.
But if they release you from the hospital now then count your days.
So we have your diagnosis congestive heart failure. You’re biggest challenge now is will God be in your favors, or will you dies in your 40’s like I once said,
If this is the case you are gonna be dead.
I am what I’ve become
And I have not a clue what I’ll be
But I have a clearer vision now and I see what I see.
Everyone deserves love in some type of way.
I pray to God you find that love before your dying day.
That’s what I pray
It’s all I have to say
Be well~
He needs you more.
Rejected like me don’t let him be. So live damn it, live change what you need. Think of your son now, let go of the greed.
I hope you read this and it plants the seed.
~NJM~
Going live on Tiffany Werhner ~Moments of Clarity~updated~
Recently I was contacted by a wonderful woman Tiffany Werhner who is striving to enlighten and educate those who suffer mental health issues, She sends her message not only to those who are afflicted with the illness of the mind but also those who suffer loss and trauma . She works closely with the Individual to target and find the coping skills necessary to aide in recovery. She goes beyond that to educate and inform those willing to listen, learn, and break mental health stigma.
What makes Tiffany stand out is she makes herself available and is open to her guest at anytime necessary if need be by calling her personally.
I too am working diligently to strive and successfully share her vision. Tiffany is a psychotherapist with an impressive background in her education and experience. She has the ability to get to the issues’ that are prevalent in her guest life.
Tiffany has her private practice. Unlike most clinical setting she took a step further to create an environment that is more like a guest visiting her home rather than a patient/ client in a clinical office. She strives to make her guest be open, without shame to strengthen and treat the individual to cultivate coping skills,and enhance their quality of life positively.
Tiffany also owns and operates a radio show with a wide range of guest to bring light to a world that still views mental health issues with stigma, and fear.
You can tune in to her show, and call in, she interacts with a diverse group of guest. You can listen to Tiffany Werhner on ” “Moments of Clarity” stationed in Clearwater Florida live on Tan Talk 1340-AM or 106.1-FM, WZHR -AM as well as 104.3-FM or on the Net at
http://www.tantalk1340.com
She encourages the listeners to call in with questions or concerns.
Should you miss a show you can retrieve them through podcast either by clicking on the programs schedule, then click on the radio show you want to play, by going to
httpwww.internetradiopros.com
The show airs every Thursday and Friday from 12-1.
I will be a guest on her radio broadcast on June 15th between 12-1, I feel privileged to take part as her guest on the dates above, I also hope to be privileged enough to be on her show monthly to help alleviate stigma and educate those willing to listen and learn.
I have a degree in psychology, I am diagnosed with Bipolar 1 and PTSD. I grew up with two mentally ill parents , I have great insight into many issues Tiffany touches upon on her talk show.
Join us and let’s stand up together to bring hope to those hurting and educate to break the stigma.
I look forward to this awesome opportunity, so I ask all my followers both on my blog and twitter to tune in and be enlightened and feel the hope and love that people like Tiffany and I strive to achieve. I will be going on show once a month I air again on July 13th then again in August I’ll have to look st my schedule to put it in post.
Also we are constantly looking for sponsors every bit helps so please contact me or the radio staton and help our cause if you can sponsor or have ideas on sponsorship thank you for taking time to read this post and be a follower of my work and poetry.
Sincerely
~NJM~
~My E-Book~ Coming soon~
Hello all my followers, I am currently piecing together and writing a literary book filled with post and poetry some you have read and some you have not. I will hope to be finished by July.
Then onto my Thriller. Something tells me one day I’ll wake up and just write it out in a few days….. I just get stuck on this thriller since it is based primarily on events that occurred in my life. Excepts are here on the blog giving small details.
I want to thank you all for your time and inspiration.
Please look forward to my e book
It will be sold for a very modest price of 2.99.
It’s my first step to my full dream. We all must start somewhere.
Special thanks to Amy, my Editor.
Also I wanted to add, it is not to hard to publish an e book it’s rather easy as long as you have an editor that knows writing well. So go give it a try yourself! If I can do it do can you!
~NJM~
Bipolar Tapestry~Poetic Thoughts 