Trying to get the filth off
Within and without
Mind filled with sickening doubt
Walking in circles
Looking for miracles
None have yet manifested
Deception braking connection
Indifference is contagious
Contagious and you’re attitude
Fighting the urge
To reach out
Only to be sickened
Your Atoms and neutrons
Electrons spin in swirl
Protons completely out of this world
Mixing within me
I can see
Sickened by your previous deception
To your evil heart vicious
And I’ll always be suspicious
Of why you chose me
Was your vision clouded?
What? You couldn’t see
What a beautiful heart beneath this flesh beating barely in my chest…….
Stop! I’m not returning!
I’m purging you out
I stay pure
Holding this life together
Because you tore it apart
I’ll purge all the urge
To never get close to you again~
Not for Reproduction~
love immeasurable, Death inevitable, hate consuming ,want never ending~NJM~#Quotes
There are two modes of bipolar 1, as well as bipolar 2. In fact in all bipolar diagnosis you have two modes. Some of the bipolar labels have mixed modes which means being hypo manic and depressed at the same time.
That’s what they think
Washed out color
Long halls painted grey
Not a door insight
Ideas out of focus
Lack luster, incredulous
emotions …….Clawing away the life fingers scraping their nails jagged and bloody, threads unravelling.. like the sound of a chalk board being scratched.
That’s what stigma, bias does isolates you.
Yet I exist Wrapped inside this cocoon~
Generic and uncategorized yet longing to be labeled and in a category ~ oh wait, I am… I fall under stigma mental illness under my skin, unseen yet relentless in my mind there are millions of my kind.
One size fits all as long as that size is extra large as to swallow my frame,as well as yours.
Swallowing my existence whole~
Thy kingdom beyond the clouds doth reign~
Shall thy defend this kingdom in vain
Wonderful glory of beauty beseech
Because thy own to far must reach
Horse hooves loudly roar
Upon this ground
Upon the sound
Upon thy mercy lay thy crown
Soldiers tarry and bravely fight
They battle deep into the night
There waits a queen whose faith is shaken~
Her lords crown may soon be taken
Doth people of common understand
That they toil upon stolen land
Beauty of thine yet more to seek
Across the crowds our eyes doth meet~
Horses hooves loudly roar
As knights from battle fight no more
Kingdom bound to feast and dance
Till yet again another chance
To defend thy kingdom
Thy people, thy crown
To defeat that beast come from the ground~
To hear that glorious, victorious sound
To place upon the king his crown
Then yet once more shall thy ascend
To fight this battle yet once again
Because this kingdom I defend!
Because this kingdom I defend!
With glorious victory till bitter end~
Not For Reproduction~
Suicide is what happens when the pain and hell you feel each day on earth overshadows the fear of a Hell in the after life or a meager existence if reincarnated.
And so the ocean welcomed her with open arms and swept her away from the hell on earth she lived. She whispered a Prayer that her father accepts his child as any father would whose child endured to much pain.