If Physical Illness was treated like Mental illness, it would be looked at differently.
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~Hades Gate~Legends~
Chattering heard whispers distance
Laden thoughts loudly waken
Inner peace completely shaken
grandeur spectacle,grace abound
Wings spread outward a glorious sound
Heaven bound! heaven bound !
But darkness creeps,the hell found
Majestically tathered whilst in flight
Eyes fixed dilated penetrating sight
Your face appears
A subtle grin
scales of justice
Weighs right in
Extending hands seal this fate
Reaching out past hades gate
Mere mortals shutter with defeat
While broken limb doth demons eat
Wishful fate Grasping hold I reach
But you slipped away
Your spirit yielded
I could not look
Your heart was empty
The hour glass shook
Cracked upon the floor
Sand spilling out
My fervent screams
into a mystical shout
Am I your angel?
Am I your demon?
Exalted I flex my wings
Fascinating melody will I sing
Searching for you
Bring you back
Hold you close
As thunder claps
Breath new life, I’ll quicken you
Perplex your mind
While I search onward
For my own kind
NJM~
Not for Reproduction~
~Stigma~
Smeared dullness
Catatonic stare
That’s what they think
Washed out color
Long halls painted grey
Not a door insight
Ideas out of focus
Stifling, confusing
Lack luster, incredulous
emotions …….Clawing away the life fingers scraping their nails jagged and bloody, threads unravelling.. like the sound of a chalk board being scratched.
That’s what stigma, bias does isolates you.
Yet I exist Wrapped inside this cocoon~
Generic and uncategorized yet longing to be labeled and in a category ~ oh wait, I am… I fall under stigma mental illness under my skin, unseen yet relentless in my mind there are millions of my kind.
One size fits all as long as that size is extra large as to swallow my frame,as well as yours.
Swallowing my existence whole~
Preferably invisible~
Left unseen~
To myself~
Designated ~
As is~NJM
~Stigma~
Smeared dullness
Catatonic stare
That’s what they think
Washed out color
Long halls painted grey
Not a door insight
Ideas out of focus
Stifling, confusing
Lack luster, incredulous
emotions …….Clawing away the life fingers scraping their nails jagged and bloody, threads unravelling.. like the sound of a chalk board being scratched.
That’s what stigma, bias does isolates you.
Yet I exist Wrapped inside this cocoon~
Generic and uncategorized yet longing to be labeled and in a category ~ oh wait, I am… I fall under stigma mental illness under my skin, unseen yet relentless in my mind there are millions of my kind.
One size fits all as long as that size is extra large as to swallow my frame,as well as yours.
Swallowing my existence whole~
Preferably invisible~
Left unseen~
To myself~
Designated ~
As is~NJM
~In the Grey~It’s Where I’ll Stay~
I’m in the grey…….
Grey Chasm swallows
I’m in the grey it’s where I’ll stay for now
I will not attempt to move quickly
Nor will I be rushed
Do I fascinate?
Do I invoke fear? Hate?
Perfectly negate?
Am I your guilty pleasure…
Is there no distance yet to measure?
I’ll create my walls
Build my tower strong
Brick by brick no matter how long
Exterior crusted over with
Innuendos and regret
I’m in the grey
I will not be pulled away
In this Chasm I will stay
Until I decide, until that day
You can not reach me… There is no definitive here
No truth or lie
If I want to stay until I die
It’s then a matter of choice
The beauty of my grey instilled in me a voice
Slowly it drips…..spill forth from my lips
Turning my words to black and white
Finally to distinguish which is wrong and which is right
But I shall not take flight oh no, I will move slowly with precision
At the end of the day it’s my decision
For now I’m in the grey area
Safely in my tower, walls erected
While my thoughts become collective
Selective
In the grey
~Walking Away~With My Weirdness intact~
I’m weird
I’m not of this world 🌎
The ether
I’m ethereal
I have lost
To much
The touch
The energy
The love
The essence
The Friends ……as I walked away
I lost it all
Had bills to pay
I lost my son, he is not the boy he was
And now it would seem I must accept I have lost a love I’ll never understand ……. boy to man~
So remember me and I’ll remember you….. yes I know I bit off more than I can chew
I lost the will to continue on
So I’m walking away it’s time to move on
You and I both know
You broke me
Still yet I am here
I’m gonna walk away now gotta learn somehow
You know I know you are with him
Hard headed always was
I’ll see you again in this I’m sure
Remember from this point my intentions pure
But I’m waving goodbye to you
I’m walking away now in this I know
I have to go
Walking away
Catch you on another day, time, place, or another life
These wounds cut like a knife
Looking back once more
Wish you would talk to me once Again, before I close the exit door
As…………………….. I’m
……….walking away~
NJM~Personal Quotes~Moving Stars~
See you can’t move the stars, you can chose the ones to gaze upon, you can make a wish, say a prayer then take life on an exiting dare~NJM
~NJM~Qoutes~
~It’s the nuggets of wisdom that fall from my mind, it’s the words that escape you I somehow find~
Loneliness~
Loneliness
A feeling so singular
A despair that numbs
No one around you
No where for them to come
Much less would you run if they did
Who can you trust
In this life you have to have one
At least they say it’s a must
Don’t believe them
There is……
A home that is lost
Friends walk away
Seems in this life
Nothing will stay
Alone
In silence
Able to just think
To sink
Downward
Into the pits of ominous clouds
Thoughts of a past screams out loud
People who loved you
Lied
None kept
All I can feel
Is completely inept
A fear that grips
A suffering so real
That all you have left
Is no way to feel
But alone~
~Never Settle~
Selling yourself short Going to lengths~
Settling~
for something less~
Find your value~
Know your worth~
Never sell yourself short~
Don’t sell out~
In the end
It’s you that will lose
Selling yourself short
Giving…..
Settling
With no return
What did you give?
What is your worth?
Do you sell yourself short?
Do you feel unworthy?
Are you unaware of yourself worth?
Yourself worth is your dreams, prayers, hopes, desires, goals that is what determines your self worth.
When accepting less than that you’re selling yourself short. You’re settling.
Suppose this happens to most of us at one time or another.
Standing your ground in what you believe is part of yourself worth.
Believing in yourself worth to the point that anything less than that which you desire, you will wait,
Knowing that by standing your ground in your belief……that what was designed and destined to be is going to come to pass.
However on the twist bipolar
Dark thought, perhaps this world is not to par with yourself worth, what of this then…..hmmm dark yet still thoughts to ponder.
Anyhow the point is clear….wait if you must strive for your goal and do not sell yourself short.
Never settle!
Bipolar Tapestry~Poetic Thoughts 