~NJM~Can You Feel What I Feel? Let’s make it part of the deal~

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I awake to your thoughts of me causing a restless longing I no longer care to touch or feel. I awake to you wanting to hear me, but I stay silent. I awake and remember how I wanted your love once at any cost. Now I’ve counted the cost it’s of no value to me.

I awake I feel your loss, your longing , I know because I lost you the day you rejected me, just took your rejection and mental abuse awhile for it to sink in. It has. In the words of the late great Kurt Cobain If you truly want me then…… Come as you are, as you were

As I want you to be

As a friend, as a friend

As an known enemy…take your time, hurry up, the choice is yours but don’t be late!

~Accounability Collector~

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In bowels of deceit you were born

Silence prevails

As dynamics fluctuate

Blood runs through

Veins yet…. no heart

A strange life

Life not meant for here

Life force with out life

Without love

Abandoned me, it’s ‘s what you do~

My voice will haunt you because I loved you~

Out the window stare

Trees leaves glistening

Sunlight dances upon them

Love has forsaken me

But Angels prevail

Breathing and whispering

Weeping for my numb

Unresponsiveness

Trying to ignite my flame of life

To save me all the strife

To late

The flames falls….. falling over

The precipice….in my heart has a steep drop

Flames burn out as they fall downward into the body, the shell of who I was

I am no longer

My life half there

Half gone

Timing, Destiny

Can kiss my ass

I’ll chose when or if

I decide to leave or stay

Best get on knees

Best pray

Memories don’t dissipate

Scathing scars

Blood runs

Slowly seeping

Out

What have you done

You fool

Foolish games

Stop

Because! …love no more

John Keats” there is no happy love

More happy happy love”

Please…
Nazareth” Love hurts

Love scars

Love wounds and marks

Any heart not tough or strong enough

To take a lot of pain, take a lot of pain

Love is like a cloud, it holds a lot of rain

Love hurts”
You had the the truth in the lyrics

Music can express

Art can express

But you’ll never again have Enough to impress

What does it take?

What it takes you don’t have,or was it Me, I didn’t …..all so complicated you see~
The accountability collector called, said its time to pay your bill it’s long past due~

A lost Love~this one…

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You love….. I love you, but look At what our love has brought us?

Hurt?

Pain?

What of the loss?

I love you,  you love me,but look tell me what has that love brought us…..

Look at us

Save your apologies

Your words have no meaning for me anymore

My heart hurts not for you anymore, don’t flatter yourself to much.

Perhaps my soul is turning into metal. Heart made of steal, maybe baby I’m to damn real.

My heart aches for my own Stupid ignorance and ever believing you truly….

Love Lossed~

Yet again…. and on and on round and round… where it lands nobody knows…..

~Sorry experiencing Technical Difficulties~

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Excuse my blog for a few days it has a malfunction in the FIRE WALL! it’s fixed soon thank you~

~Beautiful~

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Whether that ladies gentle mind no longer with the forms combined which scattered love as stars do light found sadness where it left delight I dare not guess but in this life of error, ignorance, and strife where nothing is but all things seem as we the shadows of the dream~NjM~

Stairs~Personal Quotes~NJM~

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When the world keeps stepping on your dreams just create stairs~NJM

~Anonymous Quotes~

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A Servant is a Master in Disguise~Someone wise~

~Listen Closely~Important~

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It’s best to now switch to twitter to keep up with me. Go to @Omegaalpha1 or it @Alphaomega1? Try see not sure lol

That’s where I’ll be if you want to HEAR me~

God speed to all~ signing out~

~Immortalized~Legends~

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I am the painter of my life

But the sculptor has the say

The one that reminds me

Each and everyday~

Pray….. know that your words are you, as I am the word too

As are you.

Want to live forever my child

Want to be free again…..wings again run wild?

You will move on from this ethereal area…

This realm of this world 🌎

Dimensions vast but the one thing on this Earth that will last

Immortalize you your bloodline

WORDS write put in plain sight

Take your words paint your life

Let me mold you, refine with fire 🔥

A love so real, that burning desire

Deep in your belly with steel down your back …….your a wild young hybrid full of these words, you spin and you weave……

But dear Angel your words live forever long after you leave

Immortal~

DAD~Happy Father’s Day Dad~belated… better late than Never… miss you and Mom~

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I miss you so deeply~

I miss you so much~

The comfort of your Arms When I felt out of touch~

You Wanted a boy to carry our Name~

I Had your Grandson exactly 9 months after you died on my birthday~

My Birthday is New Years~

Wake up Call~

Read the signs, I am not the traditional kind~

So I gave Him Your Name~

Nicholas John Moncada the 5th I was the 4th~born in the south not in the north~

Your Daughter Nicole June Moncada the 1st~also the 4th…. 4 seems to resonate as my Angel number and lucky number good things come in four is what I say….I take that belief with me all along life’s way…. North,East,South,West…. I like the south the best…. in fact Dad I’m gonna take Nick, my new Husband and me and live in the land down under over by the sea or is it the ocean…. so full of emotion…. I can feel that smile….. I made…. your very proud wish I could hear you speak it out loud….. wait I hear the echo of the past, I figured this out at long last……. you were glad I was a girl although you wanted a boy….. you were glad I was a girl they thought I was a boy…but you were so happy you said on your death bed….. couldn’t have asked for a braver stronger woman I can call my precious daughter…. I can hear that echo from the past it’s happening Dad finally at long last…. took half my life right go figure

I miss you so much words can’t express~

How my life became a mess~

But It’s On Track Now~

I still Think Nick is you Reincarnated~but I’m not the expert…. just a messenger of light

Maybe it’s True~

He is just Like you, Loves Classics~

Here Is To You Daddy~

Happy Fathers Day~

R.I.P.  12-15-1931 to 1-1-2003~