Here I am

I write many poetic pieces some beautiful… But I’m truly a cynical poet
I hope you can read this and gain its truth and remember that death can happen in youth. Enjoy.
~Breath Suffocate Untimely Death~
Part 1.
Suffocating upon needs that are often forgotten losing importance~
Open that window let the outside in~
The world we’ve been born into our earned sin~
Sent to reside foolish rules often broken we hide despise ….hypocrites …are we? living within, believing without seeing thoughts clouded over with doubt~
Knowing mask shields unspoken thoughts of fear rejection, desire for perfection~
Casual communication God help please, oh please can you repeat that sentence again, go on say that again, and again. It’s repetitive resound stealing time never gaining it back, stolen suffocating spit it out quickly speech just runs on, is there ever an end into this needles repetition yet again and again~
Suffocating, choking refusing to see hide between tasks between lies wearing masks, craving the spotlight that place, face in lights flashing brightly above others, laughing fake, fifteen minutes of fame forgetting the game is debilitating yet feeling the importance the sickening strain~
Feeling like winning first place in a fifth grade science fair feeling proud having others stare at your perfect work your well thought masterpiece
Still searching for that aching relief~
Sit right there suffocating, breathe just breathe, breathe that breath suck it in trying secretly all the while unsure where to begin~
Pass time with confidence those we propagate later to only negate, even family often we hate yet smile into that camera dance that dance, talk that talk, walk that walk robbing yourself, suffocate go on hold that breath the way all this is going all these dreams unfulfilled goals diminished work so unfinished and breathing it in won’t bring back the breath in the end all that’s left that elusive breath searching for air often life is completely unfair~
Crave always craving cunning tongue spews forth truth that are truly lies, the soul bleeds and cries loudly inside, keep that smile, smile really big take that picture hold that moment elegant style, ah yes elegant style that picture so perfect that fake ass smile~
That image that picture of holding our breath suffocating, breathe, don’t breathe instead we leave pieces, scattered in space knowing all the while about that untimely place it suffocates negates~
Gasp try to breathe Instead hold that breath because in this life the one thing that is certain none will escape the beautiful yet pitiful untimely death. Death, we all die can’t you see this with your mortal eye? Is there such thing as a timely death? No. Either way breathe your last breath. So suffocate hold your breath that breath sucking in and hold tight but you can never win the fight~
Part 2
Suffocating in the shadow of hate together a dance eternal as two souls mate~
Still evermore mediate, complicate, hate is exactly that which often suffocates you, me all that we see death awaits in each corner, ending breath so breathe breath, suck it in but you will not win born to die blind eyes see the heaven clatters and hell shakes, no way to determine the in or out pray unto God your soul is tried true otherwise the devil waits upon you~
A fashion and mold so uniquely you so breathe go on and breathe all the while suffocating forgetting the origin of divinity of which we were born~
Sent straight from heaven down to this earth, the Creator God that gave breath allowed our birth, still suffocate feel that nothing left suffocated by the shackles of this existence the very creation that was executed flawlessly or so thought but was it in blood that we were bought?~
A pawn in a game of chess you see, the stadium of gods watch and wait to reach for their pawn to take, and before we go to the creator that made you, me, will you breathe your last breath or suffocate~
The question remains did you live your life in love or live life in vain? Very simply one can hate scratching cursing as they suffocate. Truly can you breathe?~
Wind enticing leaves blowing the flowers slightly bending but to feel that breeze, its unseen force blowing touching the skin and caressing our hair ah yes the wind so wild and free ever reminding of the unseen breath that nature does take yet not enough do we stop for a brake to enjoy the mysterious breeze created by the forces of nature still suffocate, clearly not seen that we’re not breathing we suffocate did you receive that moment as the wind whisked by, or did you gasp choke allowing breath a foreboding goodbye? Flooded ever breaking crashing suffocating slowly stealing each breath it was bought never ours to begin, it was borrowed from God and elements unknown yet meet the supreme being who sits on the throne so breathe as you suffocate letting go, your last breath as you finalize your inevitable untimely death~
Suffocating breath~
Not For Reproduction~
Beautiful are we
Exhilarating no words needed for communicating
It’s just in our eyes no limits are set
Moments desires never forget~
Beautiful are we
As we lay intertwined
Sweat shimmering over our skin
Repeating the motions
Again and again
We climax reaching the apex
Strengthening this union sealing this
Bond~
Beautiful are we
Love affair written in stars~
We vigorously crave each
Other night after night~
Beautiful are we
Searched for years
Pushing all limits past all the fear… All those tears….. Gone~
Beautiful are we
Our hearts exchanged
Brings about change our minds rearranged
Some would say we’re deranged
Illness of ghosts that lives in our head
Often both romancing suicide wanting to be dead~
Beautiful are we
Hearts beat as one
This love affair has just begun~
Beautiful are we
Vulnerable yet strong as we walk the world together
No longer alone~
Beautiful are we
Bound by this enchantment released from our hell
Not having to convince
For we have nothing to sell~
Beautiful are we
Showing all our flaws standing face to face
Yet still allowing space this acceptance this grace~
Beautiful are we
Walking hand and hand not breaking our ties
To tell our truth not to speak lies~
Beautiful are we
Fragile we are in moments of truth
Allowing our Filth and doubt
To be exposed not giving a damn what others think
From a different well is where we drink our personal fountain never ending Enduring and deep~
Beautiful are we
As we gaze into our eyes
Seeing eternity beyond the heavens, stars…..the sky’s~
Beautiful are we
Magnificent not being conformed
Loving our difference magnetic charm~
Beautiful are we
Wouldn’t you agree?
To behold two souls finally set free~
Beautiful are we
Both crazy as can be
Illness of our mind
Finally finding each other one of our kind~
Beautiful are we
Lunatics in many ways
Mere mortals secretly covet
To live just one of ours days~
Beautiful are we
Daring tempting fate
Praying to my God the heavens to never separate~
Beautiful are you my love for not stealing my beauty
Beautiful are we
So beautiful~
His beautiful tactics always full of wonderment
Able to take my tears from falling
Able to remove my mind from crawling into corners of darkness
Pillow fight mom!
Smack upside the corner of my head
Pillows flying
Singing
Dancing
His laughter as it echoes
Throughout the house
Saying angelic words only heard in times of despair
Mom, why are you crying?
No baby don’t worry I’m just sad.
Just sad?
Pillow fight!
Singing
Dancing
Echoes from a past I’ll never recapture
Hopes of another time when I’ll be able to claim his fellowship as mine with me
Pillow fight
Singing
Dancing
His laughter as it echoes
Forever
Love you Mom
Love you too son….