I don’t feel you anymore This empty space you used to fill
To paint the picture in our mind
Those days long gone we search to find
Your image faded by years gone by
Your voiced muted
Your fragrance no longer lingers
Your thoughts no longer shared
Your laughter gone
I don’t feel you anymore
This empty space you used to fill
This empty space~
Walking, Waiting
Flying through the air
Hoping, Hating
Things that I can not bear
Did you think it’s cool to walk right up, To take my life and fuck it up
Well did you?
The Angel of what was me
I can no longer see
I see hell in your eyes
Even behind your disguise
Takin in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel so alive…….
Touching you makes me die inside
Oh I’ve slept so long without you
Alone with too much pain
Elements surround you
The Earth, Water, Fire, Air
You descend upon me without a care…..
Suppressed by your power
Your charming flair
In the witching hour
You curled around me
I was yours to devour
Now chains kept upon me
Seems I’ll never leave
Taking in by surprise
I see hell in your eyes
I awake to your thoughts of me causing a restless longing I no longer care to touch or feel. I awake to you wanting to hear me, but I stay silent. I awake and remember how I wanted your love once at any cost. Now I’ve counted the cost it’s of no value to me.
I awake I feel your loss, your longing , I know because I lost you the day you rejected me, just took your rejection and mental abuse awhile for it to sink in. It has. In the words of the late great Kurt Cobain If you truly want me then…… Come as you are, as you were
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend
As an known enemy…take your time, hurry up, the choice is yours but don’t be late!
Don’t flatter yourself Thinking I make every move for you~
Don’t flatter yourself if I ask you many questions, I’m inquisitive by nature~
Don’t flatter yourself thinking you’re the object of my desire~
Don’t flatter yourself by my fascination, a time in my life now gone~
Don’t flatter yourself thinking you could ever find anyone like me, I’m unique and to good for you~
Don’t flatter yourself you definitely are not one of a kind you’re cut from the common cloth The generic design~
Don’t flatter yourself and think your self unique trust its All been done before you’re cut from common cloth~
Don’t flatter yourself thinking you have advanced yourself in life you have not…. job promotions happen all the time~
Don’t flatter yourself you think the world owes you, a sense of entitlement you can’t seem to see just how big your ego can be~ bobble head….
Don’t flatter yourself anymore with regard to me, if you cross my mind I pray and get on with life. I let it be. You judged me was embarrassed by me~
Simply don’t flatter yourself I’m gone now let it be~
Don’t flatter yourself ~
Especially for me..~
In bowels of deceit you were born
Silence prevails
As dynamics fluctuate
Blood runs through
Veins yet…. no heart
A strange life
Life not meant for here
Life force with out life
Without love
Abandoned me, it’s ‘s what you do~
My voice will haunt you because I loved you~
Out the window stare
Trees leaves glistening
Sunlight dances upon them
Love has forsaken me
But Angels prevail
Breathing and whispering
Weeping for my numb
Unresponsiveness
Trying to ignite my flame of life
To save me all the strife
To late
The flames falls….. falling over
The precipice….in my heart has a steep drop
Flames burn out as they fall downward into the body, the shell of who I was
I am no longer
My life half there
Half gone
Timing, Destiny
Can kiss my ass
I’ll chose when or if
I decide to leave or stay
Best get on knees
Best pray
Memories don’t dissipate
Scathing scars
Blood runs
Slowly seeping
Out
What have you done
You fool
Foolish games
Stop
Because! …love no more
John Keats” there is no happy love
More happy happy love”
Please…
Nazareth” Love hurts
Love scars
Love wounds and marks
Any heart not tough or strong enough
To take a lot of pain, take a lot of pain
Love is like a cloud, it holds a lot of rain
Love hurts”
You had the the truth in the lyrics
Music can express
Art can express
But you’ll never again have Enough to impress
What does it take?
What it takes you don’t have,or was it Me, I didn’t …..all so complicated you see~
The accountability collector called, said its time to pay your bill it’s long past due~
Excuse my blog for a few days it has a malfunction in the FIRE WALL! it’s fixed soon thank you~
His beautiful tactics always full of wonderment
Able to take my tears from falling
Able to remove my mind from crawling into corners of darkness
Pillow fight mom!
Smack upside the corner of my head
Pillows flying
Singing
Dancing
His laughter as it echoes
Throughout the house
Saying angelic words only heard in times of despair
Mom, why are you crying?
No baby don’t worry I’m just sad.
Just sad?
Pillow fight!
Singing
Dancing
Echoes from a past I’ll never recapture
Hopes of another time when I’ll be able to claim his fellowship as mine with me
Pillow fight
Singing
Dancing
His laughter as it echoes
Forever
Love you Mom
Love you too son….
A life lived for another is no life at all. Be yourself~who are you living for?
Random effects of you Wash over me there is no warning nor a clue
This phenomenon you invoked in me couldn’t see it coming ’twas nothing there to see
Only a burning desire of you and me
Blindsided pulsating sound washing down of warm all over me all around
Still I search but you are never to be found
Yet I know you’re around~
Random effects of you~
Not for Reproduction~NJM
Bipolar Tapestry~Poetic Thoughts 