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Category Archives: Idenity
~Place Of Pain~New~
Places of pain
Stake through my heart
My love inside me ripped apart
It’s always the hurt that places the blame
Always some egotistical reasons to name
In times of loss and silence
Sitting in the shadows
Embracing the dark
Faith twisted torn eaten with the devils fork
Uprooted will…..not able to contain, all of this torment
This place of pain~
~My Effin Eulogy-My Epitaph~
My Eulogy, My epitaph
Can’t be written
Can’t contain
All the bullshit that Will remain
You know not about silence you have no clue~
You think art a weapon
Used by you?
Ha!
That is funny!
Think your self special my darling My honey~
I can spit out words faster than you think~
Faster than the bottle from ,Which you drink~
Don’t announce yourself to me
Tell me your ~I’m back”~
You’re the fire the lightening, Really is that a fact?
Or more bullshit you concote, Damn what a shock~
Not really your predictable you see?
If I want to see then I will, Otherwise should’ve let it be
Hacking my blog!
Think it’s cool?
All that college all that school, And to think I think you nothing more than a fool~
So you crack a code, Mix a spell,All that shit go to hell~
The jewel you found, Fascinated were you~
But you did see, That I can view, Things unseen, Feel you too~
I have a gift given at birth, Some say a blessing ,I often think it a curse~
So trend your words ,Algorithm and stride ,Get ready my Darling,For your big ride~
I could write and write, Forever you see especially,When it’s about you And me~
I’m lyrically gifted as well its seems, I take one simple word make it a dream……
Or a nightmare to frighten to scare To remind all who know me, Best beware~
There is not another you Know like me, but I know others exist….
I live in the know, Just as the tides ebb and flow~
Some say I’m a Cather of Catherism, no protest! But they do nonetheless~
My Tribe are the shaman, oracles of old.. Catherism….lights shine through the glass of a church like a prism~
Make others wonder how this is so, Art is no weapon!
Ha!
It’s a beautiful dance, It is what I am, What I will always be~
My epitaph~
My Eulogy~
I’m living,You see~
I forgot you know not, Blinded by ego~
A hurt that is fake, You go crawl the earth now, You scorpion snake~
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~Out of Stock~
Images do not play out as you expected in your mind
You search and no longer find
Me there……….
Here
Look at the photo stare
But you’re a coward
You wouldn’t dare
Take the chance
Trying to steal another glance
Into what do you look each day?
Do you ever pray?
Your alter’s sacrifice needs another offering
Perhaps next time think twice
Before you roll the dice
Stealing away thoughts
Just images is all that is left of me
I am a still shot in your mind
You look through your window
Two windows you see
But you can no longer see me
Only a thought
No longer sold
Can not be bought
Thought~
Not For Reproduction~
~Old Soul~NJM~
Old soul
Traveling through constellation
Transcending the normality
Searching for the landing
Awkward understanding
This life is unexpected
I am a visitor
I visited before
Returned
Did I leave something
Important to remember
My past life?
How many times did I incarnate?
It’s my old soul or is it?
Yes, it’s what will make me whole , the pieces of my old soul scattered all about,
Collecting each piece without doubt that lessons learned often seer the scrapes and wounds will burn.
There I was
Yet again
I know you
You’re a really old friend
Old soul
Always young
Never really growing old
These bits and pieces of old souls
We wear
But it’s the lessons we learned that we all now bare
Old soul~
~NJM’s~ Personal Quotes~
A life lived for another is no life at all. Be yourself~who are you living for?
~Count the Cost~
Count the cost before you invest in anything or anyone, Why? you are priceless.!!
Often we forget this Devine truth and settle because it seemed much easier a bit more comfy I suppose…… really? Yeah really we all have at one point severely malfunctioned and didn’t count the cost, some more than others.
I know, I’ve more than forgotten my worth that’s certain. I’m priceless. What’s you’re cost?
Mark 8:36.
For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?
~Restless Bipolar Thoughts~
Bipolar mind
Machinations
Eclectic mind
So random without order
Content unknown
Images flash
Strewn about thoughts
Racing fast,
Flooding my brain invading
Concepts to conceptualize
Twisting
There is no pause
No stillness
To much to contemplate
Subjects subjective
Bursting
Perception yet perceived
Intent
Only to be Crystallized
~Random Effects of You~Updated~I Felt it today~
Random effects of you Wash over me there is no warning nor a clue
This phenomenon you invoked in me couldn’t see it coming ’twas nothing there to see
Only a burning desire of you and me
Blindsided pulsating sound washing down of warm all over me all around
Still I search but you are never to be found
Yet I know you’re around~
Random effects of you~
Not for Reproduction~NJM
~The Chase~
I’m not gonna chase you not anymore, I’m no longer praying you will Want to walk through My door to stay with me forever more ~
I’m not gonna chase you ,It’s not worth fight Or even the plight I see you now clearly in the light You will no longer invade my mind in the day and the night~
I’m not gonna chase you hoping you’ll see the precious amazing Thing that is me, you’re ignorant can’t you see, oh yeah that’s right you can’t see what is the magic the beauty of me~
I’m not gonna chase you it’s not needed, if this was real because if you felt as I felt you would feel as I feel~
I’m not gonna chase not anyone anymore I’m not gonna be some part time whore trust in this I’m worth much oh so much more
I’m not gonna chase you, Even when I hurt and I pray Eventually someone will see me for the beauty I am, in that moment too I will see the beauty in them~
So when you miss the bits and pieces others miss, remember you allowed me in, as I did you, Thinking somehow you would be true It will be your loss and my ultimate and eventual win~
As the sun rises in the east sets in the west the chase is over time to give it a rest. I know in my heart I’ve bewitched you and swim in your blood invade your thoughts and you will feel lost for testing this game you truly won’t ever be the same, as will I, won’t you see that it’s not really you now it’s really about me~
You’ll never forget me My touch my voice The sweat the heat Especially my name I knew in the beginning the rules of the game But I’m too old for games At this point of my life I don’t need the pressure I don’t need the strife~
I’m not playing this game Not this time around or anytime other, I’m dropping out eventually I’ll find a true forever a real lover, The key that will fit to think I once thought you might have been it~
I’m not a temporary kinda woman, I’m a lady you see, I’m the stick to each other holding hands forever Against the grain of society Making my rules I can’t stand Pre fashioned People they are the fools~
Take heed in what I’m saying to you don’t let your vanity make you a bigger fool all that is vain ,Lives both in and out in the end all fades without a doubt then what are you left? A shell of a man, that couldn’t see once what he had in his hands.
Now go live your life in vain You’re not like me, you’re not the same and trust in this I’ll forget you and your name, you’ll find However you will never forget mine not now or forever Throughout time~
But thanks for the lesson Play chess oh the game I’ll never be the same This is for sure Now watch as I leave As I walk away through The door~
Bipolar Tapestry~Poetic Thoughts 