A lost Love~this one…

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You love….. I love you, but look At what our love has brought us?

Hurt?

Pain?

What of the loss?

I love you,  you love me,but look tell me what has that love brought us…..

Look at us

Save your apologies

Your words have no meaning for me anymore

My heart hurts not for you anymore, don’t flatter yourself to much.

Perhaps my soul is turning into metal. Heart made of steal, maybe baby I’m to damn real.

My heart aches for my own Stupid ignorance and ever believing you truly….

Love Lossed~

Yet again…. and on and on round and round… where it lands nobody knows…..

~Beautiful Are We~CWL~

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Beautiful are we

Exhilarating no words needed for communicating

It’s just in our eyes no limits are set

Moments desires never forget~

Beautiful are we

As we lay intertwined

Sweat shimmering over our skin

Repeating the motions

Again and again

We climax reaching the apex

Strengthening this union sealing this

Bond~

Beautiful are we

Love affair written in stars~

We vigorously crave each

Other night after night~

Beautiful are we

Searched for years

Pushing all limits past all the fear… All those tears….. Gone~

Beautiful are we

Our hearts exchanged

Brings about change our minds rearranged

Some would say we’re deranged

Illness of ghosts that lives in our head

Often both romancing suicide wanting to be dead~

Beautiful are we

Hearts beat as one

This love affair has just begun~

Beautiful are we

Vulnerable yet strong as we walk the world together

No longer alone~

Beautiful are we

Bound by this enchantment released from our hell

Not having to convince

For we have nothing to sell~

Beautiful are we

Showing all our flaws standing face to face

Yet still allowing space this acceptance this grace~

Beautiful are we

Walking hand and hand not breaking our ties

To tell our truth not to speak lies~

Beautiful are we

Fragile we are in moments of truth

Allowing our Filth and doubt

To be exposed not giving a damn what others think

From a different well is where we drink our personal fountain never ending Enduring and deep~

Beautiful are we

As we gaze into our eyes

Seeing eternity beyond the heavens, stars…..the sky’s~

Beautiful are we

Magnificent not being conformed

Loving our difference magnetic charm~

Beautiful are we

Wouldn’t you agree?

To behold two souls finally set free~

Beautiful are we

Both crazy as can be

Illness of our mind

Finally finding each other one of our kind~

Beautiful are we

Lunatics in many ways

Mere mortals secretly covet

To live just one of ours days~

Beautiful are we

Daring tempting fate

Praying to my God the heavens to never separate~

Beautiful are you my love for not stealing my beauty

Beautiful are we

So beautiful~

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~Bits of Heaven~A Price So Dearly Paid~

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Little bits of heaven scattered all about~Peppered with indifference and a tad pinch of doubt~

You’re my number 1 blu Ray always on in my head~

Things we done, should have done but never really did~

Still I search rewind and always find little bits of heaven scattered all about peppered with jealousy and a tad bit of doubt~

You’re my mobility, fluidity, lucidity and I have no motion without you.~

So I sit down on the ground gathering up my bits of heaven, separating them from the rip torn shreds of hell~

I keep so still so quiet now, yet I have a story to tell~

For now I’ll play my blu Ray of us the little bits I saved~

The little bits of heaven a price so dearly paid~
NJM~

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~My Ghost~

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I want to talk and visit with my Ghost again although I can’t see him I think he’s my friend.

My ghost would always be near right now…. right in here.

I miss the glitches and all things strange at least when around him I don’t go insane.

He has hurt me a few times

He has loved me more too

I know my ghost well…… his name, his game, how he watches each time my life takes a fall.

Wondering if this Women can take it all. The ghost see’s it’s to much and further more scared to touch.

My ghost may not know this but I live very near wonder if me and my ghost cause each other fear…. or hope for a better day one where we actually can meet face to face one day.

This ghost fascination with me may never die also my ghost usually makes me laugh and not cry

What’s sad as I mentioned is you can scare Ghost too, and sometimes the ghost might even be you~

~Sorry experiencing Technical Difficulties~

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Excuse my blog for a few days it has a malfunction in the FIRE WALL! it’s fixed soon thank you~

~Beautiful~

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Whether that ladies gentle mind no longer with the forms combined which scattered love as stars do light found sadness where it left delight I dare not guess but in this life of error, ignorance, and strife where nothing is but all things seem as we the shadows of the dream~NjM~

~Ghost Across the Street~

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When you go into that room, look through the window where I once lived, do you see me the ghost? The reflection at night, the shadow in the corner. Do you think of me fondly? With love?

Across the street where I used to live, now my energy left is but a ghost….that you summon upon request~ look hard close your eyes there I am in the window so long ago…

The ghost across the street……

~Place Of Pain~New~

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Places of pain

Stake through my heart

My love inside me ripped apart

It’s always the hurt that places the blame

Always some egotistical reasons to name

In times of loss and silence

Sitting in the shadows

Embracing the dark

Faith twisted torn eaten with the devils fork

Uprooted will…..not able to contain, all of this torment

This place of pain~

~My Effin Eulogy-My Epitaph~

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My Eulogy, My epitaph

Can’t be written

Can’t contain

All the bullshit that Will remain

You know not about silence you have no clue~

You think art a weapon

Used by you?

Ha!

That is funny!

Think your self special my darling My honey~

I can spit out words faster than you think~

Faster than the bottle from ,Which you drink~

Don’t announce yourself to me

Tell me your ~I’m back”~

You’re the fire the lightening, Really is that a fact?

Or more bullshit you concote, Damn what a shock~

Not really your predictable you see?

If I want to see then I will, Otherwise should’ve let it be

Hacking my blog!

Think it’s cool?

All that college all that school, And to think I think you nothing more than a fool~

So you crack a code, Mix a spell,All that shit go to hell~

The jewel you found, Fascinated were you~

But you did see, That I can view, Things unseen, Feel you too~

I have a gift given at birth, Some say a blessing ,I often think it a curse~

So trend your words ,Algorithm and stride ,Get ready my Darling,For your big ride~

I could write and write, Forever you see especially,When it’s about you And me~

I’m lyrically gifted as well its seems, I take one simple word make it a dream……

Or a nightmare to frighten to scare To remind all who know me, Best beware~

There is not another you Know like me, but I know others exist….

I live in the know, Just as the tides ebb and flow~

Some say I’m a Cather of Catherism, no protest! But they do nonetheless~

My Tribe are the shaman, oracles of old.. Catherism….lights shine through the glass of a church like a prism~

Make others wonder how this is so, Art is no weapon!

Ha!

It’s a beautiful dance, It is what I am, What I will always be~

My epitaph~

My Eulogy~

I’m living,You see~

I forgot you know not, Blinded by ego~

A hurt that is fake, You go crawl the earth now, You scorpion snake~

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~Out of Stock~

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Images do not play out as you expected in your mind

You search and no longer find

Me there……….

Here

Look at the photo stare

But you’re a coward

You wouldn’t dare

Take the chance

Trying to steal another glance

Into what do you look each day?

Do you ever pray?

Your alter’s sacrifice needs another offering

Perhaps next time think twice

Before you roll the dice

Stealing away thoughts

Just images is all that is left of me

I am a still shot in your mind

You look through your window

Two windows you see

But you can no longer see me

Only a thought

No longer sold

Can not be bought

Thought~

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